Tonight I laid in bed and watched 'Across the Universe'.... a movie full of Beatle's music, a movie that struck so many chords in my soul that I had to get up and write. Funny, by the time I was born the Beatle's had broken up, yet their music lives on. Music full of stories, passion, political rhetoric, and just plain craziness.
2010 was a rough year, full of doubt, frustration and confusion. At the end, I have just felt like giving up and crawling into a hole somewhere... but my faith won't allow, my husband won't allow, family won't allow my friends won't allow; so I guess that plan is just right out the window. There have been times over the past month I have just been struck dumb when someone asks me what I do.... because I honestly don't know. I've just been existing.... 2011 is coming and I want to live. Living with bipolar to the point that it has rendered me handicapped (on disability, and unable to work a 'normal' job) has really hit me right in the face. When I had my second breakdown three years ago and spent the weekend at the local laughing academy I had this sense of relief when my Dr.'s pushed the idea of filing for disability. Now two years later I'm feeling kind of lost in the world. Yet what do I do best? What can I do to make a difference. Write. Write about my experiences, write about the passion in my heart. Write and don't quit. Make it a daily exercise.... Make goals. Goals... what a novel idea.... I need structure, without it I get distracted....ooooh shiney... ok, see what I mean.
Goals for 2011
1. Write every day, at least an hour uninterrupted.
2. Wake up before 9 AM
3. Go to bed before midnight
4. Spend at least an hour researching about what I am writing.... or reading a book for inspiration
5. Share what I write
6. Find a publisher, or a way to publish my writing this year
7. Create something every day... a card for a friend, or a scrapbook page
8. Take a picture of something every day and post it....
9. Get out of the HOUSE!! Take a walk, or ride your bike
10. Go to meetings and work my AA program
11. Blog every day
12. Talk to God
13. Encourage another person....
This sounds like a reasonable plan....
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